Country music star Chely Wright opens up about her powerful reaction to the film “Carol”
By Chely Wright via Facebook
Exactly 10 years ago today, I was in a bad place. I was very closeted and in a relationship with someone who was even more frightened than I was.
On December 30th, 2005, I went to see the movie “Brokeback Mountain” with a couple of friends and of course, the movie devastated me. It was like looking into a crystal ball and it showed me what my future might look like if I didn’t start fighting for myself.
I left the theater one part terrified and one part inspired. I immediately– like that afternoon– began the painstaking process of disassembling the facade of a life I’d spent years creating.
I truly had to have a breakdown, to realize my breakthrough.
A couple of weeks ago I went to see the film “Carol”. As I walked home through Central Park, I felt like an old wound had been reopened– I was shell shocked.
As any good film or book should do for a viewer/reader, I saw myself in the story and felt everything the characters did. So I walked and I cried the whole way home.
At first, I was crying out of a sense of loss and pain, but then came the tears of triumph and gratitude.
I no longer feared a Brokeback Mountain ending for my story. To the contrary– I got the happy ending.
As I write this, my wife is driving the car and our two sons are in the back seat sleeping. We spent the holidays in Vermont with family and it was wonderful.
Ten years ago today, I wasn’t sure if I would survive.
Today, I am grateful I did.